17 Years

It's been 17 years
And still feels like yesterday;
It brings me to tears
that I have so much left to say..

Think about the life we could've lived
My sins, you could forgive
What if we could try again?
Wash away those bloodstains

I'd never let you go.
My life wouldn't be so low
Wish there was a way to show
I regret treating you like a foe

Time don't work like that,
Always Moving forward
Never looking back
My screams are never heard

Why'd you have to leave
As I began lettin you in
I know I need to grieve
All this cryin and lyin
is makin my head spin

I say that I'm fine
But they all know I'm lyin...
They say grieving hurts
They don't warn you
it's such a curse

Losing you so suddenly
It hurts probably
worse than death
I watch as I slowly lose my breath

I found you luckily.
You were so bubbly.
When I pushed you away abruptly
Didn't realize how much I'd miss your company

The bubbles have gone
Now you're just cold
Your corpse is rotting
My life into charred coals

They say time heals all wounds,
I feel like I'm being pruned

What of the scars your loss left behind
I wake up in a coffin,
My heart sobbin and coughin,
Wishing your lifeless husk was next to mine

I'm still crushing on you
even though you're gone
My heart is crushed by your loss
Why can't I move on?

I'm sorry I ignored when you'd ring
Even though I knew you were hurting
I didn't want to hurt you
But my inaction cost you

You haunt my dreams
Like a ghost with wings
I'm trapped in a maze
Everywhere I look I see your face

You were everything,
You were my person.
I'm sorry.
I'm still learnin

You haunt me in my dreams
But what's dead is dead
What's gone is gone
Your memory can live on

I can take a leap of Faith
Move towards life's next Embrace
Rediscover my Identity
With the Lessons You Taught Me

Goodbye doesn't mean Forget
But thanks for the time Spent
I'll remember you
Knowing our Love was True

Goodbye. Thanks for the good times.

Thanks for taking the lead
And for showing me what it truly means
To embrace your own hug
And give yourself love

I know I can't go back and try again
Wash away those blood stains
And it's okay,
To walk away
from that day

Though I miss when you'd ring
After winter comes spring
After the desolate cold,
The flowers pedals are bold

Enjoy the vibrance is in the air
Though our hearts need repair
After the whole the affair,
I can still find love elsewhere.