Beauty in a Train Ride
When I was still quite young,
The train was full of fun
domain between domains
Imagination uncontained….
When I was still quite young,
The train was full of fun
domain between domains
Imagination uncontained
I can still hear the noise
the kid inside enjoyed
when I think long and hard
of the next-door Rail Yard
Loud Engines Rumble and Roar
My brain begins to Soar
Steam clouds Whistle and Screech
Large Worlds Appear in reach
Where will we go, I asked
Mom said, "A place to bask,
A field full of color,
a realm unlike any other!"
Far away worlds, we'd go,
in a train from long ago
in a vessel of old,
views of life made of gold
"Can we fly," I asked Mom
as she softly held my palm
"You'll soar high," she replied,
As the flowers passed by
"Let's stop here," I pleaded
She gave me a lesson I needed.
"Things pass by, and that's okay
Even I'll leave one day."
It's sad to leave behind,
flowers that brightly shine
You can look for a time
And then leave them behind.
Saying goodbye gives way
For the next joyful day,
These flowers loved by eyes
of the next passer-by.
The beauty now faded
My life now degraded
since I was persuaded
to take those drugs while jaded
Mundane life I disdain
I don't want to remain
Chains wrap my neck like reins
I choke, my hopes all drained
My mother in that train,
How she'd complain so profane
I should be restrained insane
At the very least, detained.
My routine so arcane
drugs control my domain
Something needs to be changed
Before I'm caught; arraigned
So I vainly refrain
The cocaine now abstained,
I rejoice and proclaim
control of my domain
A wish I'd ascertain
View that eloquent terrain
Ride the train again
Imagination obtained
Called my mom and regained
and her love ascertained.
I remember her smile
Her pretty side profile
We rode that loud train ride
One last time as she died
I realized in that mile
How Life is so fragile
As I carry bouquets
And read you this essay
This, I wish to replay
Everyone leaves someday
Visit worlds far away
You can be sad or say yay
I'm glad we lived today
Enjoyed the train's display
Life is an uphill climb,
And sometimes goes awry,
But hopefully, you'll find
Beauty in a Train Ride
What Is a Friend?
A friend is a rock you can lean on.
A friend is comforting when you need someone to cry on.
A friend is vulnerable, because trust strengthens your bond.
A friend is accepting, because they love you for who you are.
A friend is a rock you can lean on.
A friend is comforting when you need someone to cry on.
A friend is vulnerable, because trust strengthens your bond.
A friend is accepting, because they love you for who you are.
A friend is frustrating, because they call you out on your B.S.
A friend is giving, not to get something, but because they care.
A friend is gracious because they know you have each other's backs.
A friend is supportive, because they want to see you succeed.
A friend is grateful for you, because they see how valuable you are.
A friend is affirming, because they want you to see your value too.
A friend is unrelenting; they will fight for you and make sure you are okay.
A friend is unconditional, because love isn't dependent on what you do for them.
A friend is irreplaceable, because it takes a special kind of person to be this amazing.
Hats off, Jazzish
I'm glad we met on Twitch,
You fulfill my evry wish.
My life was so amiss,
But now my heart is rich….
I'm glad we met on Twitch
You fulfill my evry wish
My life was so amiss
But now my heart is rich
You snitched on the abyss
And calmed the noisy voices
My brain which was foolish
Repaired from broken pieces
A puzzled now finished
Rebuild with reverence
You helped me reminisce
Revealed my soul still lives
A kid yearning for bliss
And wanting happiness
A wish I had dismissed
And buried in the pits
Beneath the shame and sin
When the depression hit
Opened my eyes, miss
With love without the kiss
Platonic soulmates ditch
The Normal Romance Pitch
Why don't it feel amiss
To have a clone; a glitch
Descending from Heaven
Angelic presence riffs
Soft stories, sobbing, tears drip
The distance is a bitch
The things that I would give
To squeeze you till your bits
To have your kind of wits
To tell those funny bits
To wear those awesome fits
Read scripts without the slips
Be able to forgive
Others, what a gift
You have amazing skills
They often give me chills
My spirit you fulfill
My love no longer sits
It soars right off the cliff
When you blessed me with
A metamorphosis
Lots of words; can't focus
Look above to notice
My fondness is endless
Hats off to you, Jazzish <3
The Purpose of Life
What's the purpose of life,
If we will one day die?
We're flying through the sky,
On a rock fueled by sunshine….
What's the purpose of life
If we will one day die?
We're flying through the sky
On a rock fueled by sunshine
The glimmer in your eyes
Sometimes makes me blind
When I look at you shine
Time goes on standby
As Moonlight belies
You glow like fireflies
As you soar so high
You're loved by every passer-by
But what of that voice that mummifies?
Could it ever be satisfied?
Your angelic haze mystifies
I feel I might meet my demise
I know you're confused why I stay nearby
How could someone like you give me butterflies?
Why do you try to hide
When you can let yourself shine?
Let the darkness inside be declassified
Be dignified; your love forever intensified.
I wish you could realize
You're beautiful even when you cry
You were too preoccupied
Singing other people lullabies
Did you purposefully leave yourself denied?
Or did you forget you deserve loved supplied?
How could you imply
Something so mortified
That you could be disqualified
From having love detoxified
Your self-deprecation is nullified
By countless moments you deified
You can't deny our years together justify
The ways I'm qualified to say you're worth being glorified
The rooms you enter are revitalized
With love and compassion multiplied
Why are you so terrified
Of kind words edified?
Now I legally can't lie
As I hereby testify
You're beauty is magnified
By the person who lives inside
The spark in your heart electrifies
The people whose lives you've revivified
Making laughter from outcry
And you joke so benign
An emerald personified
Our lives forever rubified
By your immaculate goldeneyes
That'll shine 'till the day you die
Someone who always gives it another try,
Whose strength can't be quantified,
That's what I identify
Every time we say Hi.
And time passes by
As we talk all night
When you're being shy
And the voice says to hide
When self-worth is hard to find
Make that voice step aside
Because others get to decide
where their love is applied
So now you must decide,
Which option will you comply?
You you can deny
With a cute little lie...
Or you can accept and reply
With a message that should be amplified
You feel gratified by those inclined to ratify
The truth that you shine like starlight
That they, too, look sublime
On this rock fueled by sunshine
Floating through the sky
For this limited time
Isn't that the purpose of life?
To help others feel ALIVE
17 Years
It's been 17 years
And still feels like yesterday;
It brings me to tears
that I have so much left to say….
It's been 17 years
And still feels like yesterday;
It brings me to tears
that I have so much left to say..
Think about the life we could've lived
My sins, you could forgive
What if we could try again?
Wash away those bloodstains
I'd never let you go.
My life wouldn't be so low
Wish there was a way to show
I regret treating you like a foe
Time don't work like that,
Always Moving forward
Never looking back
My screams are never heard
Why'd you have to leave
As I began lettin you in
I know I need to grieve
All this cryin and lyin
is makin my head spin
I say that I'm fine
But they all know I'm lyin...
They say grieving hurts
They don't warn you
it's such a curse
Losing you so suddenly
It hurts probably
worse than death
I watch as I slowly lose my breath
I found you luckily.
You were so bubbly.
When I pushed you away abruptly
Didn't realize how much I'd miss your company
The bubbles have gone
Now you're just cold
Your corpse is rotting
My life into charred coals
They say time heals all wounds,
I feel like I'm being pruned
What of the scars your loss left behind
I wake up in a coffin,
My heart sobbin and coughin,
Wishing your lifeless husk was next to mine
I'm still crushing on you
even though you're gone
My heart is crushed by your loss
Why can't I move on?
I'm sorry I ignored when you'd ring
Even though I knew you were hurting
I didn't want to hurt you
But my inaction cost you
You haunt my dreams
Like a ghost with wings
I'm trapped in a maze
Everywhere I look I see your face
You were everything,
You were my person.
I'm sorry.
I'm still learnin
You haunt me in my dreams
But what's dead is dead
What's gone is gone
Your memory can live on
I can take a leap of Faith
Move towards life's next Embrace
Rediscover my Identity
With the Lessons You Taught Me
Goodbye doesn't mean Forget
But thanks for the time Spent
I'll remember you
Knowing our Love was True
Goodbye. Thanks for the good times.
Thanks for taking the lead
And for showing me what it truly means
To embrace your own hug
And give yourself love
I know I can't go back and try again
Wash away those blood stains
And it's okay,
To walk away
from that day
Though I miss when you'd ring
After winter comes spring
After the desolate cold,
The flowers pedals are bold
Enjoy the vibrance is in the air
Though our hearts need repair
After the whole the affair,
I can still find love elsewhere.
Angels and Silhouettes
You were an angel
Glowing in the darkness
How could I ever treat you
With so much harshness?
You were an angel
Glowing in the darkness
How could I ever treat you
With so much harshness?
I can't stop thinking
Where my actions have led
No amount of distraction
Can make me forget that you're dead
I'm grieving for an angel
Another victim of this crazy world.
I look around and all I see
Are angels dying all around me
I feel so very alone
surrounded by the corpses from my past
How can ever I move on
When no one in my life ever lasts
I can't stop blaming myself
For something I know I couldn't control
It doesn't stop me wishing
Your loss didn't leave such a big hole
You were a darling angel
A perfect paragon of virtue
You were always there for me
And in return I blocked you
Maybe one day you'd forgive
all of the horrible things I did
You chose to no longer live
Now I'm stuck in this pit I fell in
You deserved so much better
Than the way I abandoned you
I'm told to forgive myself
But that's not something I know how to do
I know that you're gone
And that I should move on
But I can't stop thinking
What if I hadn't done you wrong?
What if I hadn't said goodbye
On that fateful day?
What if I had stayed?
And told you everything would be okay?
Present at your funeral
I stand before a pale empty vessel
I ask myself who I am
Compared to someone so special
So many things I wish I could change
So many things I regret
I just wish I could tell you
I'm sorry.
I guess I'll just have to tell your silhouette.