Angels and Silhouettes

You were an angel
Glowing in the darkness
How could I ever treat you
With so much harshness?

I can't stop thinking
Where my actions have led
No amount of distraction
Can make me forget that you're dead

I'm grieving for an angel
Another victim of this crazy world.
I look around and all I see
Are angels dying all around me

I feel so very alone
surrounded by the corpses from my past
How can ever I move on
When no one in my life ever lasts

I can't stop blaming myself
For something I know I couldn't control
It doesn't stop me wishing
Your loss didn't leave such a big hole

You were a darling angel
A perfect paragon of virtue
You were always there for me
And in return I blocked you

Maybe one day you'd forgive
all of the horrible things I did
You chose to no longer live
Now I'm stuck in this pit I fell in

You deserved so much better
Than the way I abandoned you
I'm told to forgive myself
But that's not something I know how to do

I know that you're gone
And that I should move on
But I can't stop thinking
What if I hadn't done you wrong?

What if I hadn't said goodbye
On that fateful day?
What if I had stayed?
And told you everything would be okay?

Present at your funeral
I stand before a pale empty vessel
I ask myself who I am
Compared to someone so special

So many things I wish I could change
So many things I regret
I just wish I could tell you
I'm sorry.

I guess I'll just have to tell your silhouette.